Baby (Mom)ma

"I was drowning in darkness, suffocated by emptiness. A vision of beauty unseen until I met you." -Bek Before entering parenthood I had...

"People do the best they can with the level of awareness they have". Prematurely into this beautiful journey of parenting I was...

Over the course of 5 years I personally have not experienced anyone discussing the mental health of melanated children. From birth black...

Reflecting on a question a friend recently asked me... why did you block me? Resistance was comforting. If words were never spoken,...

Modeled relationship during your childhood shaped future romantic relationships. Cycles are the state of living in the unconscious mind....

"I'm safe being who I am on any given day" -Bek As an adolescent I thought of myself as being submissive, when in reality I adopted that...

As human beings I believe not" getting your way" is the first lesson we ever learned. Accepting that "what is meant for you will become"...

I WAS INVISIBLE BECAUSE I... had to be. LONLEY BECAUSE I... had to be. SILENT BECAUSE I... had to be. AFRAID BECAUSE I... had to be. Now...

Often referenced in my previous entries "reflections". Over the course of a year I have crossed paths and exchanged energies. When the...

My soul ached knowing that I would not be able to feel your touch again. A touch that sent electricity through my body. Kisses that...

To my future love, Who am I without you ? That's a question that I never want to pose. I know who I am. Before and after you. Your...

Trusting self again after betrayal... sounds easy huh? Remaining in the same cycle of mistrust was never my goal. I love with an open...

War is sometimes our only way to capture peace. Being drafted in the war of life, where you have to make swift decisions to protect...

"Spring cleaning" a metaphoric term which describes any heavy duty cleaning or organization completed during the end of the year. How...

I'm engaged. Life committed itself to me on February 15th 1993 and proposed June 23rd 2020. Vows of unbreakable loyalty, unquestionable...

Life presents us with signs that we often ignore during our journey of loneliness. Cues and prompts that offer us with decisions....

I want to be alone for the rest of my life.... said no one ever!!!! Not having an authentic relationship with self created a vicious...

Codependency has been the donor to abandoning my true self. Who I am has always been suppressed to manage others perceptions of my image....

Survival- The state or fact of continuing to live or exist,typically in spite of an accident, ordeal, or difficult circumstances. My...

My inner child prompted trauma bonds. The child that was denied their reality. The child whose trust was violated by people that were...